From the age of five, I would have multiple spiritual experiences for which I could not put into words nor explain what I was seeing. I had both good experiences where I saw the pristine light of God, and good angelic spirits. I also experienced the false and deem lights of evil and demonic spirits. Both seemed to intermingle with people around me who could not preserve them. I could see how people were being influenced by the spiritual world in both good and bad ways. I could also see how they would whisper in people’s ears and even enter their bodies temporarily. These experiences ignited a solemn pledge to walk in God’s light and resist all evils. What many found good and righteous turned out to be full of lies and false convictions.
My resistance to predominant beliefs caused me to become an outsider and a loner because I was surrounded by people who were influenced by dark and evil forces. By the age of Ten, I could recall dreams and premonitions that would happen the next day or week and it felt like I was living in a twilight zone or déjà vu. My dreams showed me what I was and why I had taken on an incarnation to bring love and light to the world. I also saw the path I must take and the trials I would face which will allow me to deepen in my partnership with God and achieve God’s purpose for humanity.
Since God intends for our souls to become Christ consciousness, He will take us through experiences similar to the one Jesus went through. This includes, hate, loneliness, temptations, stress, rejection, criticism and many other problems because spiritual tests lead to a partnership with God. During our spiritual tests, we are left completely alone although not alone and those times, God is intimately present with us at the deepest level giving us support.
Can we grow spiritually without trauma?
This is a good question to ponder. I liken trauma to a seed in the soil. I can only imagine the struggle it faces as it pushes its way out of the dark heavy soil into the light towards the sun. I can only imagine what it takes for trees to grow branches and for an egg to transform into a bird and for this tiny life to kick its way out of its shell. I cannot imagine that human growth and development would be different. Chicken farmers know better than to make the process easy for a chick for their lives are only as good as their ability to force their way out of the shell. Our traumas, trials and tribulations are as such. I wish not to take it away from anyone as a healer but to join others in embracing their own difficulties so they can grow and come closer to God’s love and light.
Unfortunately, many people prefer to trivialize trauma. Have you ever heard or given the advice to “get over it and get on with life”? One way that we may cope with traumatic events is to minimize it. We may say things like “it’s okay” or “it’s not a big deal” to ourselves or other people. But if we don’t have the tools or understanding to know how to properly synthesize our traumas, it can leave us stuck, unable to process it. We can end up carrying our wounds with us for the rest of our lives. As a result of “invisible” inner wounds from trauma in our past, we will struggle to experience the fruit of the Holy Spirit; love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. We may subconsciously cover up our unresolved innermost issues through a variety of coping mechanisms, including the hardening of our hearts towards other people and God. All these cripples our spiritual growth.
We came to the world to develop in accordance with Gods plan.
The human spirit seed was planted on earth for growth and development. We have a short life on the planet. Thank God it is so. We can utilize our short time to develop ourselves from the inside. One day, the body will die and like the chicken breaks from the shell, we will break from the body. What will become of you after that? How would you look and where will you go? For after we leave this human self, out new self/real self is what will be left. We literally become our greatest love. No kidding! I have seen spirits with big mouths because they were never satisfied in their physical life. Spirits with hallowed heads because they inundated their lives with spiritual lies and witchy looking spirits because they were consumed by jealousy.
Spiritual growth and healing trauma are deeply interconnected processes that involve facing personal challenges, embracing change, and seeking higher understanding. Healing trauma often requires confronting painful emotions and memories, which can lead to significant personal transformation and spiritual development.
I look forward to sharing trauma stories, spiritual insights and healing tools in my upcoming book titled:
Indigen
Journeys of a wounded healer in spiritual psychotherapy.
